Some of the Puerto Rico Pictures

My family vacation

Well I am back from the puerto Rico vacation, I can honestly say this was one of the best vacations I been to. From the warm welcome received arriving in the San Juan International airport, to the ride to the hotel. Intercontinental Resort is the BEST! It is sooo beautiful and the people are soooo great. The area is also good. It felt good to acknowledge this culture that you are part of. When we are born and raised outside of puerto rico, we tend to loose our true culture or even loose interest in it. As I looked at the people I noticed the men with the high ankle socks with shorts and the swagger while they walk and the jewelry worn reminded me of my uncle and grandfather. Then you have the women who wore the tight pants, heels while they work and their hair done as if they were heading to a party. Hearing them speak with this sexiness just having a conversation. Made me feel proud to be puerto rican..... walking through the historical sites of Old San Juan gives you chills and admire the beauty of it. The food was delicious. I loved this vacation I took with my family, loved the fact that I got to show my children the beauty of where our family is from. Even though they are young and we did not see everything but just the experience is outstanding and will live in our memories forever until we add more to it. I felt at ease and not stressed with no drama. Me and my husband did not argue as much as we did before we left. We had minor moments but it was easily got over. Now our marriage is not repaired but he didn't annoy me beyond the point that I feel like killing him. I think that I am still in vacation mode so it helps with dealing with drama he brings me. Lets see when vacation modes fades away what will happen......

Medea Goes to Jail - Review

Medea Goes to Jail is freaking hilarious!..... I can't wait to see this movie again. Tyler Perry is the man, he has taken comedy to another level. I totally recommend this movie to anyone. Even though this was a funny movie it did have its sensitive moral to the story. Which all his movies have. I think that his movies are great because we all can relate its done so realistic. Medea is a mad women who believes in the "lort" as she says but yet is a hot mess lmao..... I saw this movie with my best friend shaly. We had such a good night, a dinner, some shopping and a fabulous movie..... a great night!

Tasting a little piece of peacefulness

First I want to say this picture is so beautiful, just looking at the bird alone with the sun shinning down on it, its outstanding. You feel at ease. Anyway, within the past couple of days, even through my painful tooth I have to honestly say that I have had some peace in my life. I stand up with I have to make changes in my life. I am happy I have. My kids are great, Hailey is more of a diva by the day, and Nikolas has a new hair style! He is looking a little like "Jim Carey" in dumb and dumber because he is missing his top tooth. HILARIOUS! But I have to say this weekend I had both of them and we did things it felt good. Even though my son told his dad something that no parent wants to hear. He told him that he doesn't love him because he loves me too much. When I spoke to him about this he stated that his father doesn't kiss him or hug him like I do and tell him that he is baby. When I told my husband he quickly got defensive and began to speak in a high tone to Nikolas saying that he does give him kisses and hugs. I stopped him because I was not going to have him speak to him in this manner when my son is only expressing himself. So I later explained to my husband that he just feels as though he doesn't do it enough like I do as his mother. Maybe he wants more attention and that is the only way he knows how to express himself. Not sure if this will change because I honestly don't think my husband has that type of nature in him. He is not really affectionate with the kids as I am. But other than that we all had a really good weekend. No word on the evil MIL, she has not made any attempts to contact us. I guess she is leaving it up to God as she likes to say. But it has been blissful with out her. Oh well...... I leave to puerto Rico in two weeks woohoo!!! I can not wait. Then in July I am leaving with the girls to Miami, Florida for a weekend trip. Which is going to be a blast. The girls who don't come its their lost, we don't go on this trip to act like little girls and do stupid things like great drunk and act stupid, act like slores! we go to relax and learn about ourselves as individuals. I felt so good when I got back last time. Can't wait to do it again. Wow, I can honestly say that I am pretty content on where I am today. I am working at a job that I can basically do what I want, work the hours I want, and make good money for now, also I am going to school to be a clinical psychologist, and my kids are great. I go out with my friends when I can, my marriage is still there but the point is that it is still there. So I can't really complain at the moment. Sometimes we need to acknowledge the good then always the bad.

DAMN TO THE MIL (mother in Law)

Well, me and my husband have been on the low this past two weeks. I have expressed myself to him like I never before. I believe he knows where I stand with my feelings. I even expressed myself to my evil mother in law, not that she cared to respond. He also wrote to her and she has not responded. She spoke to him prior on reading his email to her but she had read mines and when she called him for his birthday she acted like nothing was happening, as if I never sent her a email. He was stunned when she asked him if things are okay after he asked her did you read my email to you. He was in shock how she would just put it in the back burner as if it didnt matter. I can honestly say that he realized what I been saying to him about his mother. He said I can't believe she ignore your email and mines. In some ways I am glad she did so that he could feel how I been feeling for years. But since she been MIA I been in peace. We have been talking to each other more and I am letting him in my heart little by little not so fast but its baby steps. I have decided to post pone the surgery and go on a vacation with the kids and him to puerto rico. Maybe this is what we need. We need to have positive energy around our marriage. Those who judged me by her words and have not giving me a chance, its their lost. I am happy to say that one person in this crazy family has given me that chance to get to know me and have grown closer than my own cousins. Even though they judge her as well, I see pass her human mistakes and love her unconditional. Maybe because I see myself in her, and also because she is a good person. So I leave you guys here with the unknown of my marriage. I know that marriage isn't perfect but it should at least feel like one.

Prayer for Bobby

Well, not sure who saw the lifetime movie "Prayer for Bobby". I heard it over the radio recently that it was going to be shown tonight. So I recorded the movie on my fabulous DVR. Now this lifetime movie I must say is the best one I have seen so far. It is about a young man who is homosexual and committed suicide, and his mother who became a advocate after. Now that is just a mist of what the movie is about. Now this young man realized that he been struggling with the thoughts of a gay man. He tired his best not to have the feeling, thoughts of a gay man. But later realized that he couldn't hold it in anymore and confided on his brother which later told his parents because bobby tried to commit suicide by taking pills but couldn't go through with it. Now the thing is that his mother was a crazy Cristian as I like to call them. She use to tell her children that they can not commit sin because they have to be together in the after life. So Bobby felt that she will not love him, but when the brother spilled the beans the mother went into a psycho rage of trying to fix him. She did everything from, changing his diet, exercise, putting bible quotes through out the house, taking him to a counselor and even forcing the father to spend more time with him. She will tell him that she was not going to loose him to this "evil temptation". No the movie portrays both sides which so interesting. Later on, bobby fell in love with a man and told his mother who blame him for not having enough faith in God, trying to cure himself. He told her accept me for who I am, or not have me at all. Of course she choose not to have him. So Bobby left and moved on, but he still felt incomplete and ashamed that he was gay because of what his mother installed in him his all life and especially when he tried to reach out to her. So he decided to jump off a bridge. Which I must say had me stunned! At this point of the movie you grow to see bobby as a individual that all he wants is love from his mother. The mother lets a freaking priest condemn him in his own funeral. Which was crazy!!!! So then the mother begins to question why God didn't cure him. She said that in the bible homosexual will be condemned. She began to do research because she need to know if her son was in heaven or hell. She found a church that accepts homosexual as equals. And shows them that God loves them for who they are. She questions the priest, how the bible states that homosexual is not acceptable by God. He replies to her with several things that I myself never knew. He said that in the bible also states that a women who gets married after having children should be taken home and thrown rocks. Also when a child disrespect their parents they should be killed. Now she runs off in disbelieve and reads the bible and finds that those statements are so in the bible. She returns to the priest again to question that why is it okay for anyone to interpret the bible anyway way they want to justify their actions. He replies by you have to understand that the bible was written by a mortal when they themselves interpret things themselves when they wrote it and also the bible was written in a different time. We all think different within time. She still didn't agree. But as she morned over bobby room and things she began to read his journal and found that he did try to change he didn't choose to be gay. All he wanted was his mother to love him. She then attended a group meeting with parents who have gay children. And came to a conclusion that she had a major part on his death. She couldn't understand why God allowed him die and not cure him. Only if she would have listen to her child who was trying to speak to her, maybe he would be with her today. Only if she would have done her research on homosexuals she could have known how to deal with it. "Bobby wasn't healed because there was nothing wrong with him," she says. This was so deep!! This is a true story. And I am glad that it was shown on TV. Hopefully it changed those who are ignorant to the homosexual world.

-"Before you echo Amen in your home or place of worship, think and remember, A child is listening." - Mary Griffith

Tummy tuck

I have been researching very deeply Tummy Tucks. Last year i went to a plastic surgeon to see if I qualify. He stated that yes I do, that was music to my ears. He did work on my sister in law which I must say are great. No one can tell she had work done. He is very honest and does good work. And of course certified. Many do not agree with my decision on wanting a tummy tuck because some feel I do not need it, or I look fine, its not worth it. But I want it for me, it will make me feel better about myself. It is a scary procedure to do, the scar is a bit over whelming but in due time it gets better. It is not like my stomach is a virgin to scars anyway. I have mini scars from my gallbladder being removed and of course stretch marks from having three children. When I went to him last year I did not have the funds to go on with the surgery. But by next month i will. My husband totally supports me in this as well. I believe it is because he does love me and he is tired of hearing me bitch about my body lol. I am planning on blogging from the post op to the end results for those who are also interested in doing it or wonder how it works. I figure if it wasn't for those out there who do the same I won't have much to go by. So I am scared but also very excited. I will keep you posted.