Teenage Years.....

Through out my teenage years, I went through many types of abuse. Mental, physical, sexual at times I just wanted my life to end. What saved me was the fear of pain, which sounds very ironic but its the truth. The pain just caused me to hide behind a shell I had built through out the years. In all reality I began to wear many different masks. One for my friends and school where I would act like a normal teenager, family thought I just had strick parents but I was a good child. And best mask of all was my own that I built through time. I wore that mask for myself, because I would put aside all the pain that had everyday and strive harder to find ways to get away. I was my own coach! Annie, forget what people say and go out and do what you have to do to get far far away from these losers. Even though my mask did not save me from all the insecurities that was inside me. It was always a battle between that mask and my insecurities. At times the insecurities will win. But I always had some strength and pull through with some bumps and bruises but for the most part I pulled away from alot of the abuse. I must say I have been successful on a couple of things, and my major success I have to say is becoming who I am today, out-spoken, honest, and knows what she wants and best of all goes for what she wants. I finally gained a voice.....